Inside the Underworld of Giant Fetishism
How I accidentally became a goddess
I'm a 6'6 woman who is active on social media. That's me up there on the far right, obviously. You see, I am what many people would call a giantess.
As Wikipedia puts it, a giantess is "a female giant: a mythical being, such as the Amazons of Greek mythology, resembling a woman of superhuman stature." But I'm not mythical; I'm a real person — a real person who accidentally became a fetish model on social media.
In the summer of 2018, photos of me went viral in an online forum (I have yet to find the source). Overnight, I received thousands of friend requests from people all over the world. I checked my inbox and discovered that all these people loved me for my height. It was odd. While it was nice to be recognized, the attention was only about how much I towered over short people. Why was everyone freaking out and leaving heart emojis under a random photo of me next to my short friend?
Shortly after I decided to accept some of these Facebook friend requests from admirers, I received a message from an anonymous person. Apparently, there is a whole world of people who fetishize very tall women. This man had no real name and no photo. He told me that he had a tall-lady fetish himself and said that if I wanted to grow — no pun intended — on Instagram, then I should start a new page using specific hashtags: #amazonianwoman, #tallamazon, and #heightcomparison.
I was very hesitant to take advice from a random giantess-loving dude online, but I was intrigued. And beyond simple curiosity, there was more: after years of being bullied, I'd been looking for a way to view my body positively. There had been days when I had felt so insecure about my height that I wouldn't even leave the house. Maybe I could use my height to empower others with a body-positive angle of how I overcame low self-worth and self-confidence. Since I was going through a "what the hell" kind of phase, I decided that I had nothing to lose. Besides, I'd been looking to grow my audience to showcase my writing and poetry. Despite my misgivings, I asked him if becoming a part of this community would help grow my presence.
He assured me that it would and named other women, none of whom I had heard of, who have used their height to create huge platforms on social media. He then welcomed me into the world of Amazons by calling me a "goddess." Like, thanks? What he didn't tell me was that once I began to post photos using those hashtags, I would be inundated with hundreds of DMs from hidden profiles asking me for, um, "trampling sessions." After some Googling, I discovered that a trampling session is an activity that involves being walked on or stomped on to produce humiliation or pain. OK…
I always thought that tall girls were referred to as "Amazons" as a joke or even as a compliment of sorts, on the basis of the mythical creatures. But now, on social media in 2019, an Amazon is just a term used to identify any tall female. That's it. Most tall girls and tall women have no idea that they are feeding into this fetish when they use even simple hashtags like #tall until they're flooded with DMs from short men asking for height-comparison photos—and then some.
People were absolutely obsessed with my size — not just my height, but every part of my body.
I wanted to find the positivity in this strange world. I wanted to be like the Ashley Graham of the plus-size movement, but for extremely tall women. So off into the world of Instagram I went with my new profile, @tallwomanpowermaliaarrayah.
I drew a lot of followers—hundreds, then thousands. I was hoping to attract followers who could identify with feeling like an outcast, people who were looking for encouragement to keep chasing their goals and to not give up even when they'd been bullied, but that's not exactly what I got.